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Assalamualaikum semua..

Semoga anda semua sentiasa dalam Rahmat dan Kasih sayang Allah SWT. Dan semoga anda semua dalam keadaan sihat sejahtera.

Sudah berbulan tidak saya coretankan walau sepatah perkataan di blog ini. Terlalu banyak perkara yang telah saya dan keluarga lalui sepanjang tempoh beberapa bulan ini. Benarlah bahawa sesungguh nya kehidupan sebagai hambaNya tidak pernah kita sunyi dari ujian iaity sapaan kasih sayang yang abadi dari DIA, Tuhan Yang Maha Esa.

Seminggu selepas Aidilfitri, abang saya yang kedua telah kembali menemui Ilahi. Allahyarham Mohd Asree b. Samean/Kasminah meninggalkan seorang balu dan tiga aorang anak yang berusia 10 thn, 15 thn dan 20 thn.

Kami redha atas pemergiannya kerana kami percaya ini kehendak Yang Maha Esa. Kerana setiap yang hidup pasti akan mati. Dan daripadaNya kita datang, kepadaNya jualah kita kembali. "Allahumaa firghlahu warhamhu waafihi wafu'anhu.Semoga Rohnya ditempatkan dikalangan hamba-hambaNya yang beriman dan yang beramal soleh. InShaa Allah.

Buat kanda yang dikasihi, moga tenanglah di sana. Semoga abang As bahagia dan gembira bertemu Almarhum ayahanda, Samean b. Sulaiman/Hasnah dan Almarhumah kekanda Siti Aisyah binti Samean/Kasminah, iaitu adinda bagi kekanda Asree dan kekanda bagiku.

Banyak episod yang sedikit merentap tangkai hati. Terutamanya buat Bondaku, Kasminah binti Kamar@Kamal. Bonda, berat sungguh ujian yang diberi kepadamu duhai bondaku yang tercinta. Bersabarlah bonda, semoga Syurga Firdausi buatmu dan ayahanda nanti, bersama kami nanti kita ketemu kembali di syurgawi.

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim..
Sesungguhnya hanya Engkaulah tempat kami memohon kekuatan dan kesabaran..
Hanya padaMu kami mohon perlindungan dan memohon pertolongan.
Bantulah kami dalam melalui denai-denai harapan disepanjang perjalan kehidupan.
Tetapkan hati-hati kami di jalan yang Engkau Redhai.
Dan janganlah Engkau golongkan kami dikalangan hambaMu yang Engkau murkai.

Semoga kami terus di jalan bersma orang-orang yang KAU kurniakan nikmat dan senantiasa mensyukuri nikmatMu Ya Allah.
Ameennn..
Allahumma Ameennn...

Love. Hope. Dream.

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone.

It's June already. And we currently in the middle of Syaaban. Ramadhan is just around the corner! Alhamdulillah. May Allah give HIS will to us stay until the end of Ramadhan.

It's has been a while since I'm not write any post here. Well, so many things to settle first.

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Back then in May, i was a lil bit excited but at the same time feel sorry for few things. I dont know. Well i guess its human nature to have those feeling where u can easily felt happy but then things might make your tears dropped without you want it.

As time goes by, i felt empty. 
Lonely..
Have some lacking parts within my heart.
Why?
IDK (i dont know)

I guess i quite far from the Lord.
Ya Allah make me close to you.
Calm me and make me felt im not lonely.
You are sufficient enough for me.

The truth is,
among all my best friends,
im the one and only left behind.
They are all married.
And us.. Yes we still best friends.
but it wont be the same like our old days.

i feel i lost them.
well how can i say.
the things is, things are different from before.
differ from what we used to be.

they got hubby, even they already have their own babies.
while me? Ummm im still grateful. 
Allah had planned a very nice and great journey for me.
Alhamdulillah!

Parts of me saying that
i dont need a man to make me happy.
to make me living.
and all what i need is to love me, myself.
rather than giving loves, hopes and dreams to the opposite gender.
i admit, it sounds like broken-heart or what so ever.

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But then, im completely feel free and comfortable with current situation.
its easy.
free.
and i dont need to think about any other matter unless about my mom and me.
the rest? Not yet.

Some said to see the shining and tender of a rainbow, there will be rain- heavy rain, storm, and even thunder.
only after those things, we could see the adorable rainbow. Of course it must be with Allah's will.

hummm..
what else?
some part of me also saying that, what i need the most is to complete my vision, mission and my targets.
what i love to be...
what i want to be..
and what i need to accomplish.

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to be a writer.. That's what im eager for..
to be a doctor of philosophy, that's what i want.
to be a teacher/lecturer it's my ambition since i was 6th.
to have my own business, boutique for female couture it also one of my dream since i was 10th.
to open up a book cafe, where the concept is to relax, comfy, and cozy is also one of my dreams as well.

i have lots and many things that i wanted so much.
but im quite frustrated with me my self.
why marriage wasnt the first priority that i should go for? 
i keep thinking.
and it couldnt make me stop from worrying about me.

does love is too hurt?
does love is so suffered?
i've experience it once.
and i dont want to feel that again.
to me its pointless.
meaningless.

but i have to admit, at least i learned the lesson.
to marrying someone, at least you need courage and brave enough as to live with the strangers for the rest of your life.
i dont want to risk my life by simply marrying anybody.
you can call me risk adverse type of person or anything.
i'm a risk taker perhaps in any other matters, but not marriage.

i found, im quite skeptical and reserve person. 
not easy to trust anybody and surely not easy due to giving my love to anybody.

*sigh*
Well i bet only the right person can broke the icey and cold heart of mine.
to me, love is not a things.
but love is ones life.
once its broken, 
the heart will die.

p/s: still hoping that i will meet my jodoh as soon as possible.

*Tanpa Tajuk*

Assalammualaikum semua...

Di harap agar semuanya dalam keadaan yang baik-baik saja.

Hari ni, tergerak hati untuk menulis. Sungguhpun tiap masa kita menginginkan berita atau perkhabaran yang indah-indah, tapi dalam tak sedar, ada berita yang mungkin sedikit menguji keimanan kita.

Tak semua yang kita lalui setiap hari adalah yang indah-indah. Terkadang ada saja yang akan membuatkan air mata mengalir. Tidak di luaran, mungkin hanya menangis di dalam hati.

Perkhabaran pagi tadi, membuatkan hati sedikit terusik. Berita mengenai abang sepupu saya yang sedang terlantar di hospital. Jika dihitung telah hampir 8 tahun beliau menanggung penyakit yang dihadapi. Mengalami penyakit hati yang membengkak. Kedengaran sedikit pelik kerana penyakit seperti ini jarang kita dengar. Entahlah nak bercerita lebih lanjut tidak pula saya tahu butirnya dengan lebih jelas. Cuma hati sedikit sedih, bimbang dan lain-lain. Anak-anak masih kecil. Entahlah... Semoaga Allah memberikan yang terbaik kepada abang sepupu saya sekeluarga.

Benar, hidup manusia tak kan tidak untuk diuji. Allah akan terus menguji setiap dari kita. Entahlaa.. terkadang saya merasa saya tak kuat nak menghadapinya. Duka itu saya kira masih terasa. Tapi saya tahu, tidaklah saya boleh berperasaan begini lama-lama. Harapan itu selalu ada, cuma semuanya kita wajib menyerah pada takdir yang telah tertulis. Setelah berusaha keras, namun, semuanya terserah pada takdir yang Maha Kuasa. Tiadalah daya dan upaya melaikan dengan kekuasaanNya.

Kita, hanya menumpang di dunia ini. Hanya meminjam. Segalanya adalah milik DIA. Sampai masa kita juga akan kembali kepadaNya........
Semoga masih ada harapan yang indah.