worst

Hi all.

the moment i write this post, i feel so bad.

Really bad

Why i'm saying this?

Cause i feel so stress at the moment.

Have you ever felt to cry out loud, but it seems you can't?

Some said, it is because you are in a great pain. 

the worst ever!

Why, why and why?

- Jauh dari Allah mungkin!

Ohh serabutnya kepala!

At the age of late 20th, you belum ada career yang stable! 

it was horrible!

at the age of late 20th, you punya saving masih ciput.

Hutang bukan main banyak..

Harta?

Oh nasib lah baik diri ini adalah harta yang terlampau2 bernilai!

kalau tak.. Apa pun tak de.

Aku nk kehidupan sederhana dan bahagia

- Aku rasa memang aku tengah dapat sekarang ni kehidupan yang memang sangatlah sederhana. Tapi bahagia tu....??

- no answer! (macam 50-50 je)

Tak bahagiakah aku?

- Tak pasti hummm

So, sekarang ni apa masalahnya??

- Bila kau betul2 terlupa dgn pasword fb, nk retrieve semula, ohh mai.. pasword segala email untuk fb yang ko buat since zaman tok adam dlu dah tak kau ingat passwordnya! over than 5 years already kau..! henpon rosak,. number phone kesayangan dah expired, apa lagi.. Ohh dgn belum dapat kerja, boifren tak da, calon suami pun tak hade.. ape lagi.. Ohhh SADIS.. Macam orang jatuh tertimpa batu bata!!

kenapa kesian sangat dengan aku ni.

- KIFARAH

Ye, sebab atas dosa2 yang kau selalu buat, lepastu sebab ko ade salah dengan orang lain.

Semua ni akan berlalu nanti..

Tapi how to fix it????

Ya Allah tolonglah aku cari jalan penyelesaian semua ni.

Bagilah aku kesungguhan untuk atasi semua ni.

Kuatkan semangat aku,

Kembalikan semula segala motivasi aku yang dah lenyap tu

Surely aku tengah buntu 

uwaaaaaaaa 

-menangis pon tak de guna......

nangis memang tak ada gunanya

Still single? No worries. You're beautiful and charm

(photo credit: weheartit)

It's quite late already, as the clock ticking at 2.29am.

And suddenly you still feel fresh like you just had sleep for 8 hours before.

This is very unusual for me!

:) Why?

This just remind me of my college's days, where i could stay up until dawn or at least till 4.00 in the morning. And could get up on time for Fajr's Prayer.

Amazing!?

It is!

Lol! This is so out of the blue moon! :D

Wow. I don't know, perhaps this because of i'm just having a little chat and talking with my bestie. . It's really make me felt like our old days.. hahaha

Gossiping all night long..

Eat maggi, cookies etc etc to stay awake 

Haha and today, we had a conversation about the early 20th vs late 20th things! 

Funny enough i guess.

Hmmm things changed, and so do i.

:) i bet u guys did the same thing with your best friends perhaps

As we get close to the age of 30th, (*if you still single, then read these)

1) All what we wanted so much is chilling all day

2) lay on the couch all day long

3) Prefer comfortable shoes rather than those killing high heels 

4) Talk more about food rather than a guy

5) Stop watch movie like a marathon 

6) Being so okay even when you all alone went to concerts, movie, museum, parks and eating

7) Starts don't bother what others might say/think about you

8) You love to walk, sight seeing, and do more interesting reading materials. Suddenly you falls for arts and photography

9) Weekend is the 'me' time

10) And you enjoy so much driving at the beach

11) Selfie? no more i guess.. it turned out to be foot-fie, hand-fie, food-fie and work-fie

12) You will no longer bother how handsome your friend's of friend's boyfriend/ fiance/ husband!

13) You slept at night without concern on your phone.

14) You are braver and stronger enough to faced the everyday routine and hurdles. The mood swing, put on weight, workloads, stress and etc. Seriously not many women can handle all of these without telling or share with spouse or their dates.

15) Eating is the best medicine 

16) You got dumped? It doesn't matter. Trust me. That's the best. he don't deserve you.

17) Going out with very simple outfit. it took sometime lesser than 5 minutes to get ready. Ain't like in the early 20th!

18) You suddenly spending an hours for new hobbies like painting, baking, gardening and reading

19) You prefer do zumba at home rather than went to zumba's class kind of

20) Your wardrobe suddenly full with work's outfit rather than dating outfit or else an outfit, fit for attending 3789 of wedding ceremony and yada yada..

21) The song lists on your phone is seems easy listening, no stress, chilling moment, acoustic, no more pitbull, rihanna, linkin park, lady gaga and etc

22) You suddenly attracted to buy frying pan, new dinner set rather than new lipsticks

23) You tend to scroll down the Youtube for cooking a delicious chicken stew rather than eye-ing on how to do eye makeup and shading

24) You really pamper yourself for special rewards! new designer handbag perhaps

25) You'll always look up for long weekend and next destination of travelling

26) Suddenly you tend to so 'rajin' looking forward for cheap flight tix

27) The wishlist for visiting new places is the never ending lists

28) Solo travel? Why not!! Pack up your things and you go girl!

29) You being so cool when people asking why you still single kind of question

30) Wrinkles? It's sexy. Not something to freak out badly.

31) You really appreciate your quality time with your mom/dad/parents. Shops together, having lunch together and even you both went to travel together.

32) You believe that you are beautiful enough and your confident is so amazing. Because to you, beauty is actually with brain.

These are the 32 lists on why single women at the late 20th looked so cool and brave enough ;)

Come on girls. 

Indeed you are so cool enough to be the most charming girl ever.

So swept away all your worries, stay cool and be positive. Always! 

LOVE 

Kahwin? *Sorry I malas nak fikir. Map please? Nak buat itinerary

Dulu...

Aku pernah tau, kemaruk betul fikir pasal kahwin.

Bukan main excited.

Siap survey untuk pelamin, mak andam terhebat,

Make up style yang tak over the spoon sangat.

Baju yg cecantik tahap rerama yang baru keluar dari kepompong.

Semua tu aku pernah rasa dengan sangat teruja!!

But now?

Korang rasa?

:) Aku dah tak kisahkan semua tu.

Tak teruja pun sibuk pasal nak kahwin.

Bila nak kahwin, dengan siapa,

Baju apa, tema apa, warna apa, mak andam mana..

Tak kuasa nak teruja!

Agaknya sebab apa ye?

Sebab macam dah tua sikit kah? hahaha

Atau, memang malas dah nak fikir?

Atau sebab serik?

Mmm mungkin jugak sebab serik..

Yela cuba korang rasa, bila dah beriya sibuk arrange pasal kahwin, siap pilih tarikh, pastu tak jadi..

Korang rasa?

Hambar!

:)
Sebab tu aku dah malas nak teruja okey..

Biaq pi la kahwin ka tidak..

Kang kalau beriya lagi, lepas tu tak jadi jugak, sapa yang rasa?

AKU jugak yang rasa sensorang.

Lepas tu...

Yang menangisnya aku jugak..

Orang lain?

Tak de maknanya nak menangis bagi pihak aku..

Cut the finger la babe, if they really do.

Hopeless.

Aku memang dah tak percaya benda-benda pasal cinta yang ntah apa-apa ni.

I don't need a man to make me happy.

Biarlah.

Katalah nak kata apa pun..

Aku tak kisah.

:)

Aim aku sekarang memang fokus kat diri sendiri 100%

Lepas ni kalau nak nampak keras hati dan degil aku, get prepared.

"I'm a nightmare dress like a day dream"dear..!

Sick with certain people who's trying to control our own life. 

Oh goshh.. masa kau kahwin dulu orang tak halang pun.

Bila turn kita.. Don't! jangan. Tak qualified katanya.

Agaknya nak calon yang macam mana ek..

Ada rupa? 6 million dollar man?
Oh please, ingat aku cantik macam Anne Hathaway?

Hahaha End up, nak tau tak, hey.. i'm still single til today! :)

Sebab apa, sebab aku malas kalau nanti kne reject lagi.

And guess what, ada ke orang nak pinang aku?

Yang boleh terima buruk baik aku?

Yang boleh terima jenis kaki tidur macam aku ni?

yang tak reti masak rendang macam aku ni?

Hmmmm... Well, if any, then i'm lucky i guess.

If not, i need to get ready untuk simpan duit banyak-banyak. 

Perhaps, sudahnya aku kat rumah orang-orang tua.

itu tak mustahil..

Jadi, nasihat aku, kalau ada orang yang tengah beriya dan bersungguh nak kahwin, tahu saranan Nabi SAW untuk pilih pasangan dari yang empat tu, dah ready dan sedar akan tanggungjawab lepas berumahtangga, berdinding dan berbumbung, janganlah sekat.

Jangan sampai orang tu patah hati, merajuk, give up, rasa hambar dan tak ade hati nak beriya fikir pasal kahwin. 

Sebab bila orang tu dah tawar hati, Kau bagilah LV, Prada, Gucci atau Chanel sekalipun, dia memang ambil. Tapi separuh hati dah lari..

:)

Hati manusia, bukan kau boleh kira percent dia kecik hati dengan kau.

Merajuk dia mungkin dia masih boleh ketawa..

Geram dia mungkin masih boleh duduk makan semeja.

Tapi effect psychology dia, a lifetime okey.. A lifetime!Seumur hidup!

Jadi, stoplah menyakitkan hati yang super sensitif tu dengan kata-kata yang lebih tajam dari mata pedang.

Kau bajet, semua orang boleh terima kau ungkap macam tu?

Kau bajet semua suka cara kau yg begitu.

Kau pernah terfikir kenapa orang tak suka kau? 

Pernah buat analysis sendiri? Pernah collect data sendiri kenapa orang tak suka? Pernah?

Kalau tak pernah, sah! Kena cuci hati.. basuh dengan sabun.. 

Fikir balik kata-kata yang pernah kau sebut-sebut dulu. 

Kau rasa kau cakap apa yang betul..

Tapi hati manusia.. Hati tu fragile.

Lebih fragile dari kaca..

Lebih lembut dari kapas

Lebih kecik dari atom..

:)

Well,

Tahniah..!

Sebab pernah membunuh perasaan orang sampai dia hilang punca.

Sampai hatinya jadi keras dan tak percayakan manusia lain atas muka dunia.

:)

Tahniah..

Sebab dia yang kau sakiti hatinya,

dah shield hatinya.

Dan dia tengah fikir, solusi kalau dia tak berkahwin, apa plan sepanjang hayatnya.

Jadi, Terima kasih. :)

Antara jerebu, langit biru dan hujan

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

Lama menyepi. Sampai terlupa yang saya ada blog.
Recently, the haze is worst.

Bila dah jadi macam ni, mulalah kita rindukan clear sky, good weather. Tiba-tiba nak pula tengok pelangi dan hujan. Manusia, memang itulah sifatnya. 
Tak henti dan takkan pernah berhenti dari meminta daripada Sang Pencipta, Sang Khaliq.

I do hope, as well as many out there that this will get back to normal.
I miss to see clear sky.. 
The clouds
The birds flying high

What else, clear view of plane on the sky
The rainbows 
the smell of rain..
And goes on..

Nak mengeluh pun tak guna.
Tangan-tangan manusia juga yang menjadi punca semua ni.
So the best is, janganlah bakar membakar ni.
and pray and keep praying this will end very soon.